The first day

Well, today was the first day we went without Tyler. I think that it was ok for the first half of the morning. My mom and I were talking about maybe it would be a good idea to move down to Georgia for 3 months. So I started looking at apartments. It sucks though because they are either overpriced or right in the middle of Augusta-- which isn't really that nice of a place. When I used to live there, I remember our house was always being broken into. I will keep looking though, I still have about 2 months to really find a place.

Well, this morning when I went to change Travis' diaper, I took it off, and he got up and walked over to a bunch of his folded clean clothes and peed all over them. Then looked at me and smiled. As if I don't have enough laundry to do as it is! He also at one point saw our car, and pointed to it and started yelling for his daddy. :/ I wish he knew what was going on, so that he can know that he WILL be back. I show him his picture all the time. He always smiles. When Tyler called today, he was smiling and pointing to the phone when Tyler was talking to him.

I slept about half the day with Travis. Didn't have much as an appetite either. I try not to think that it's so far away. I try to just think about other things and keep my mind off of him. I wanted to him call all day. My phone has been glued to my hip all day just waiting for him to call. I hadn't spoke with him since 11:30 last night when he was leaving from the airport to go to Fort Jackson. He called me finally at 6:00. He wasn't doing so well. Of course, the first day is always the worst. He was shaken up. EXTREMELY homesick. He couldn't even talk to me for more than a few minutes-- so he went to take a shower to calm down a little bit. I had to hold in my feelings at that point because I know that he has it a lot harder. :/

While he was taking a shower, I was giving Travis a bath. He didn't want a bath today. He was refusing to sit down. If you have ever tried giving Travis a bath, you would know that it takes 2 people. Without Tyler around, it was just an absolute nightmare. Thank GOD he gave me a break afterwards when I was putting lotion and powder on him. Afterwards, he got his burst of energy as always and was wandering around the house aimlessly.

Tyler called back about 40 minutes later. He was a little better, but was saying that more than anything he wanted Travis and I to move down there. He said he wanted to come back home. He will get over that in a few days though. I HOPE! I hope that he enjoys it (as much as he can.) He just says he can't wait to see us at graduation. He really misses Travis. That's the hardest thing for him, is being away from Travis. God, I can't wait to see what Travis is going to be like when he has those days where he's just a daddy's boy, and wants noone but daddy. Blahh, I am dreading it. Anyway, Tyler hadn't had more than 3 hours of sleep for the past 3 days, so he ended up going to bed around 8pm. Most of the guys had already been asleep. Tomorrow he is getting his ACU's. Today he got his haircut, new running shoes, his PT uniform, dental checkup, shots, a camelback and all of that fun stuff. Tomorrow is more paperwork too. Fun stuff, but he should be able to call me for the next 2 days, and then after that-- who knows.

Travis is now just falling asleep it's 9:30. I am feeling SO tired. I don't know why. I guess it's because i'm sad. My body does that a lot, I feel like I have no energy in me. This is going to be SO hard for me. Hopefully the time will just fly by. I guess I will head to bed. I think tomorrow I will take Travis to the park! :)

gnight!

Jess